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  Dedication

  For the good Lord above, who has blessed me so richly!

  May I always boast in You and Your gift of salvation through grace by faith!

  Epigraph

  Give, and it will be given to you.

  A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap.

  For all the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

  —LUKE 6:38 (NIV)

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Chapter 45

  Chapter 46

  Chapter 47

  Chapter 48

  Chapter 49

  Chapter 50

  Chapter 51

  Chapter 52

  Chapter 53

  Epilogue

  P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*

  About the Author

  About the Book

  Read On

  Praise

  Also by Nan Rossiter

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  1

  LIGHT BLUE FLAMES LICKED THE DENTED BOTTOM OF THE OLD COPPER TEAKETTLE, making it rock like an unsteady sailor. A moment later, the soft whistle emanating from its spout escalated into an urgent scream. To some, the sound—like the cry of a hungry baby—might be unnerving, but to Libby Tennyson it was welcome. She hurried into the kitchen, carrying the small denim overalls she’d been mending and clicked off the burner. The ancient kettle squeaked and sputtered indignantly, and then—like a baby that has just latched on—settled contentedly. Libby poured steaming water into the pot and dunked a single bag several times before putting the top on to let it steep. The delicate Wedgewood china—miraculously unchipped—two-cup pot and vintage kettle had both been handed down to her from her grandmother, and Libby had never been able to make a “pot of comfort” without thinking of the indomitable force of nature that Gram had been.

  Elisabeth McCormack Jansen, or “Bet,” as she’d been called by her husband—and after whom Libby had been named—was a new wife and expectant mother when the Great Sadness—as she called it—struck the nation, and one of the many lessons the young woman learned during those lean years was that two—even three—cups of tea, strong enough to provide a measure of comfort, could be made from a single bag. Bet Jansen’s thrift was legendary. Her family loved to recount her resourcefulness—from canning and pickling every kind of fruit and vegetable (including watermelon rind!) to being able to “make do” with whatever she had on hand, even concocting a delectable, hearty version of Stone Soup (minus the stone) with the last of the root vegetables in her cellar. She also had the eccentric habit of mixing breakfast cereals, and whenever her grandchildren declined to give her favorite combination—Corn Flakes and Honey Grahams—a try, she’d tease: You don’t know what you’re missing! She washed and reused aluminum foil, served boiled hot dogs on toasted white bread, smothered with spicy mustard and sweet homemade pickle relish, had the mildly obsessive habit (before OCD was a diagnosis) of wrapping her bread in two plastic bags to keep it fresh, and she religiously touted the health benefits of prune juice, insisting that one small glass kept her “regular” while dutifully squeezing a small daily glass of fresh OJ for her husband. To say that Henrik Jansen was not a fan of the thick brown substance of which his wife sang praises would be an understatement. In fact, whenever she offered him some, he made a silly scrunched-up face that made his grandchildren fall apart in giggles . . . and made Gram roll her eyes. Gram had been a tiny wisp of a woman with a heart the size of Tennessee, and although her spitfire spirit and stalwart faith had the power to move mountains, she maintained her frugal ways all her life, even after her cup once again overflowed with blessings. And her youngest granddaughter—and namesake—was cut from the same cloth.

  Libby set her hen-shaped egg timer for seven minutes—just like her grandmother had—and waited for her tea to steep. It was true—she and Gram had a great many things in common—so many, in fact, that her grandfather had teasingly called her Mini-Bet. Not only had they shared the same name, but Libby had also inherited her grandmother’s cornflower blue eyes and kind smile, her silky brunette-turned-prematurely-silver hair, and her never-idle hands; and both women, try as they might to have daughters, had only given birth to sons—Bet, five strapping boys, the youngest of whom was Libby’s dad, Dutch; and Libby, six of her own—and now, Libby mused wistfully, they had one more thing in common—the aching sadness of becoming widows at much too young an age.

  Libby watched the sun slip out from behind the slate-gray clouds and make its first appearance of the day before sinking below the dark horizon. It had been raining since dawn. The weatherman said there was even a chance of snow!—a rare occurrence in eastern Tennessee, especially in late April, but at that moment, the fiery orb was sending coral streaks across the sliver of cobalt sky, and casting an ethereal golden light on the ancient oak tree that stood like a sentinel in the middle of their windswept fields. The Tennyson Tree, the boys called it—the tree under which Cale—and now Jack—were buried.

  Melancholy hour, Libby thought—the time of day that had once kept her so busy making dinner, helping her boys with homework, and prodding them to finish their chores that she hadn’t had time to notice the setting sun. But now, as it streamed through the windows, washing the walls with a golden light, all she could hear was the tumbling teasing voices of her sons echoing through the rooms, along with her husband’s stern commands. A lifetime of memories. Sweet memories.

  It had been eight months since Jack died and Libby still couldn’t believe he was gone. She kept expecting him to come through the door and pull her into a playful hug. Tall, handsome, and strong as a bear, Jack’s six-foot-four frame and larger-than-life personality had filled a room, but after a valiant—albeit brief—battle with cancer, he’d become a shadow of the man she’d married. And then, on a sun-kissed summer day—the kind of day that should have found him out baling hay or harvesting corn—he’d succumbed to the dreadful disease, and his fighting spirit had slipped away, a whisper on the wind. Four months after that, Dutch died, too. Her two anchors in life taken from her, and it had been more than she could bear.

  She turned from the window, poured a cup of tea, and held it in her hands, letting the heat seep into her aching joints. “Oh, Jack,” she whispered, feeling tears sting her eyes, but when she heard the knob of the mudroom door turn, she quickly brushed them away.

  “Grandma?” a small voice called.

  “In here,” Libby called back.

  “Oh, no! Hold on . . .” the flustered voice called, and then, “Dang it, Gran! Is it okay if Goodness and Mercy come in? Because they’re in!”

  “It’s okay, hon,” Libby assured her granddaughter as the two tiger cats—one orange, one gray—scampered across the worn linoleum. She smiled, remembering how Chase—who had an affinity for rescuing and befriending orphaned animals—found two kittens behind the shed when he was around seven years old, and it had been at around the same time he’d been tasked with memorizing the Twenty-Third Psalm, so when the kittens imprinted on him and started following him everywhere he went, he christened them with their biblical names.

  “Sorry,” Ellie said as she kicked her barn boots onto the mat. “Cats are so sneaky—they just slink around, spying on you. I think they were waiting in the shadows for me to open the door.”

  “Probably,” Libby said, chuckling as she watched the cats curl up together on the soft fleecy dog bed near the woodstove. “Are you and Dad done milking?”

  “Almost. Uncle Eli and Uncle Grayson are helping him. He said I could come in for a minute. Boy, it’s really gettin’ to be mud season out there!”

  Libby nodded, remembering all too well the mud and manure her six sons and husband tromped through when they were feeding and milking their five hundred cows. The washing, hanging, ironing, and folding of laundry (not to mention the pairing of socks!) had been endless. She certainly didn’t miss it . . . or did she? Now, the thankless chore fell to her sons’ wives. Matt, Eli, and Grayson continued to run the farm, but they’d all married country girls who’d known the mud they were getting into.

  “Would you like a cup of tea?” she asked, eyeing her granddaughter.

  “Earl Gray?” the little girl asked hopefully, shaking off
the chill and holding her hands out to the woodstove.

  “Is there any other kind for a day like today?”

  Ellie swept her blond hair out of her cornflower blue eyes—a combination of genetic traits that ran as strong as thistle in the stubborn Tennyson line. “Lemon, too, please.”

  Libby poured a second cup, squeezed in a slice of lemon, picked up the overalls, and brought both to the table. “These are little Jack’s.”

  Ellie eyed the knees. “Were you able to patch ’em?”

  “Does a cow give milk?”

  The little girl smiled. “How come you always do that, Grandma?”

  “Do what?”

  “Answer a question with a question.”

  “How come you ask so many questions?”

  “You just did it again!” Ellie exclaimed. She held her hands over the cup and breathed in the fragrant citrusy steam. “Grampa used to do it, too,” she added, smiling. “I miss him . . . and Dutch.”

  “Me too,” Libby said, “and I think it comes from having so many children asking so many questions all the time.”

  Ellie blew softly on the surface of her tea. “Why did you have so many kids?”

  “So we could put them to work, of course,” her grandmother teased, as if the answer should be obvious. “As you well know, there are plenty of chores around here.”

  “True,” the little girl agreed. From the moment she’d been able to walk, Ellie had accompanied her dad to her grandparents’ farm to “help” with all those chores—from feeding the chickens to leaning her cheek against the warm belly of a big bovine and skillfully tug on its smooth teats, squirting fresh milk into a bucket or into the open mouth of one of the many barn cats that patrolled the premises. Ellie had been—as her dad loved to tease—born an old farmhand. Now she eyed her grandmother. “Gran, did you ever want a girl?”

  Libby nodded. “Oh, yes. I have so many recipes and kitchen secrets to pass along . . .”

  “Good thing you have me,” the spunky ten-year-old chirped.

  “Good thing!” Libby agreed.

  “Mom says I broke the all-boy streak.”

  “You did indeed . . . and now we have Maddie on our team, too.”

  Ellie nodded, thinking about her younger brother and all her cousins. Out of ten Tennyson grandchildren, only two were girls—Ellie and her newest cousin, Madison . . . and although there were two more buns in the oven—as her mom, Jodi, liked to say, the gender reveal confetti for both expectees had been blue. “Maybe Uncle Gage and Uncle Chase will have girls.”

  “Maybe,” Libby replied, trying to tuck away her worry by taking a sip of tea. Gage, her second oldest, at thirty-seven, had recently gotten engaged, and he and his fiancée, Maeve Lindstrom, were planning to get married on the farm in June, but Libby didn’t know what the future held for her youngest son. At twenty-eight, Chase’s life was unfolding in ways she hadn’t expected—or maybe she’d just been in denial, and with a mother’s heart, she worried—despite Gage’s reassurance—that Chase might never experience the wonder of being a dad.

  “What’s wrong, Grandma?” Ellie asked softly.

  Libby looked up, instantly pulled back to the present, and mustered a smile. “Nothing, hon,” she lied, and then eyed her granddaughter’s cup. “Would you like some more tea?”

  “Maybe a spot,” Ellie replied, mimicking her favorite British TV character, Hyacinth Bucket. “Just to warm it up,” she added with a grin.

  Libby brought the teapot over and warmed up both of their cups.

  “We have to remember to watch The Great British Baking Show and Keeping Up Appearances this Saturday,” Ellie said, thinking ahead to her weekly sleepover night, a routine that had begun shortly after her grandfather died.

  “Don’t we always?”

  “We didn’t last week.”

  “Why is that?” Libby asked, frowning.

  “Because we played cribbage and lost track of time.”

  “Oh, right,” Libby said, nodding.

  Just then, the mudroom doorknob turned again, and a second later, Libby’s third-oldest son, Matt, peered in, his cheeks ruddy from working outside. “You ready, kiddo?”

  “Hello to you, too,” Libby said.

  “Hi, Mom,” he said, smiling. “I’d come in, but I don’t think it would make you happy,” he said, gesturing to his muddy boots.

  “That’s quite all right,” Libby said, nodding as Ellie wrapped her arms around her.

  “See you tomorrow, Gran. The sun’s supposed to come out.”

  “Do you think we’ll recognize it?” Libby teased, squeezing her.

  “I’m told it’s a big fiery ball,” Ellie said, laughing.

  “Well, we’ll just have to keep an eye out for it then.”

  “Love you.”

  “Love you, too. Don’t forget your brother’s overalls.”

  “Oh, right!” Ellie said, picking them up. “Thanks . . . and thanks for the tea.”

  “You’re welcome.”

  Through the kitchen window, Libby watched her son and granddaughter walk to his truck and then glanced at the kitchen clock—it was still early enough. She could easily make it down to the Coffee Bean. She didn’t have to stay long—just long enough to say hello to her two oldest friends and the other ladies from town who’d lost their husbands in recent years. She bit her lip, considering, then looked down at her clothes. She’d have to change . . . and it was getting dark—she didn’t like to drive in the dark . . . not to mention she still had more mending . . . and she wanted to get up early and have the coffee ready when the boys got there in the morning. Maybe next time, she thought. She poured the last of the tea into her cup, put another log in the old Vermont Castings woodstove, and walked back to her sewing chair with Goodness and Mercy trotting after her.

  2

  PAYTON CHILDS UNLOCKED THE DOOR OF HER SHOP AND TURNED ON THE LIGHTS. It felt as if she’d just turned off the lights and locked the door, but here she was, back again, less than six hours later. Day in, day out, lock, unlock. Where did the time go? She glanced at the clock and yawned at the early hour. She’d kept the shop open late the night before—as she did every Thursday—for a small gathering of her mostly widowed friends (mostly because Callie Jasmine was divorced, but claimed it was like being widowed). The group—who affectionately called themselves the Guild—had been started by Payton and her friend, Ames Finley, after their husbands—Lonny, a tractor and small engine repairman; and Frank, a dairy farmer—died of heart attacks within six months of each other. The two women had consoled, confided, and found comfort in each other’s company, and then they’d invited other friends whose husbands had died, and their circle had grown. Over the last several months, they’d also made it their mission to convince Libby Tennyson to join them, but their slender, silver-haired childhood friend always had an excuse. They weren’t giving up, though. The three women had been friends since childhood—they’d gone to kindergarten together, and they’d had children who’d gone to kindergarten together, and Lonny and Jack had been best friends so their lives were deeply intertwined and rich with shared milestones and memories. Payton and Ames knew it would be good for Libby to get out of the house and join them. The Guild was a support group of sorts—in the beginning, they’d always gathered at Payton’s house, but after she opened the shop, they moved the meetings there—it was more centrally located, and it saved Payton from having to keep her house tidy all the time. The Wine-Drinking Widows—as Cashen called them—had been getting together for nearly two years, though, so Payton thought she should be used to the once-a-week late night. It was unlike her to feel so tired, but then again, maybe she shouldn’t have had that third glass of wine . . . or maybe sixty-five was finally catching up with her . . . or maybe it was time to call her doctor and make an appointment—it had been a while since she’d had her thyroid checked and her numbers fluctuated more than a politician in an election year!

  “Cash, you comin’ in?” she called, peering into the darkness, but when her twenty-eight-year-old son didn’t respond, she realized he still had his earbuds in. She walked over and rapped loudly on the window of their old Chevy pickup, and when he looked up, his glasses reflected the screen of his iPhone.

  “Be right in!” he called. “I just wanna finish this game.”

  Payton sighed, and let the shop door slam, putting an exclamation mark on her disapproval. “Those damn games!” she grumbled. “And those damn earbuds!” She didn’t mind that Cash listened to music—she and Lon had raised him on their favorite music from the fifties and sixties so he’d grown to love it, too, but when he put his earbuds in, he disappeared into a world of his own. That was one of the reasons she’d bought the shop—besides needing something to do with her own time—she needed something for Cash to do. When he was little, her son had been diagnosed with Asperger’s, a term associated with autism; and although he was on the high end of the spectrum, and smart as a whip, especially when it came to math and music, his bright mind was consumed by video games, and Payton felt as if she was constantly battling with him to find something more productive to do. Playing games and blocking out the world didn’t help his social skills—which had always lagged behind those of other children his age, and as he’d approached adulthood, she worried what the future held for him, especially when she wasn’t around anymore. Cashen needed to have his own income and his own purpose in life. For years, she’d been praying—with a mother’s heart—for an answer . . . and for the assurance that he’d be okay when she was gone. Then, one afternoon, when she’d run into town to pick up a zipper to mend his jacket, she’d found the fabric store vacant . . . and the building for sale. She’d peered through the window, walked around back to the small courtyard framed with raised flower beds, and had
an epiphany.